I Just Can't Get It Right

Why am I like this?

Lately I've been allowing myself to be distracted by so many useless things. It seems these days that I live for my emotions.

You know that emotional high that you feel when you gain that attention from the guy/girl you're interested in? Sometimes I feel like I live for that high. Either I am reveling in it, or craving it.

I realize that I desire to be glorified. Honestly, I think that's what it really comes down to. I am either idolizing others or idolizing myself.

A sermon today spoke some truth:

We become bored of God because we are worshiping the idols of our hearts instead of Him.

Can I get back onto the right page?

who's deserving

Whenever I feel let down by people (thankfully not often), I wonder what I've done wrong and wonder why all my trying to be the best person I can be to them isn't reciprocated.

But then I think of God. 

And I realise how much more I have let Him down through my recurring sins. And it really is so much worse than I have ever done to any human. So what's a little nonsense from people eh?

I totally deserve it.

It can be the same

When we take a minute to reflect, the message of Almighty God is the same at one angle.

In Islam, the salat (prayer) that is made obligatory for 5 times a day is the few minutes one has to connect with Allah (swt). It's the moment we remind ourselves of God's doings and to consider the blessings we have. It's the personal connection between you and Him. In all religions I believe, the ultimate goal and idea is to personally connect with the Almighty. It's you and Him, from day one to the very last..

The song sung by Sami Yusuf (below) reflects that, and speaks of the benefits one receives from paying attention to that connection with God.